Although Doctor didn't have much concern about my low amniotic fluid (I guess it should be on the lower-normal end), he just said rest, rest and rest! All looking good but deep inside I CAN'T! Yes, I'm worried about Baby Cal, I'm worried something bad could happen to her and I'm freaking out! I have been checking Google about this issue and it seemed like Google gave me both good advice and scary stories like birth-prematurity, baby's lung or kidney problems which seriously freaking me out :'( Maybe I shouldn't read Google too much & just follow my Doctor's advise to rest well!
Honestly every pregnancy is a scare to me. I remember when I was 36 weeks pregnant with baby EJ, I rushed my self to hospital because I felt EJ wasn't so active. And I panicked like hell. And also when I was into my early pregnancy with Baby Cal, I had blood in my uterus and Doctor said it wasn't a stable pregnancy and asked me to rest more. I rested and Baby Cal continued to grow well and here comes another concern (although it's not my Doctor's concern) but it's my concern and my worry. I just want Baby Cal to stay healthy and come to us in this November or early December. I will be officially full term in this mid of November, a few more months to go, so baby girl, please stay well like you are now, okay?
It's also kind of breaking my heart knowing I have to leave baby EJ care to my helper or mil full time as he's very active and I have to rest well & I'm no longer allowed to carry him. Imagine, he's only 1 year 3 months old and his mommy can't carry him for a few months. That will break both of our hearts. Nevertheless, I'm still trying my best to bond with him through reading, watching video together, light-playing or just cuddling. I hope he understands mommy needs to care his little sister, so she can arrive safely :)
Baby Cal has been kicking so actively and I can feel her moving all the time, sometimes my belly feels a little sore from her kicking but I hope she remains her strong kicks. I don't mind at all, it shows that she's all well and that's the only thing matters to me :)
I read that low amniotic fluid can be caused by dehydration. Many women drank liters of water to increase the amniotic fluid level. I really really hope that my "not much" water in my belly is caused by dehydration and could be fixed, simply by drinking more water. I hope that's really my case. I drink liters of water and hopefully my next check up (4 weeks later), my amniotic level is back to normal. I pray hard for that!! 4 weeks is a long wait & I'm both nervous & worried!!
I also feel a little bit guilty over my diet for this 2nd pregnancy. It seems like I took things for granted which I deeply regretted it. I craved for Hawaiian Pizza, fast foods and Pepsi and I had at least 2 cans of Pepsi a week, not forgetting other kind of comfort soft drinks and tea going into my stomach. I haven't been eating healthy in this pregnancy. I didn't eat vegetables or meat enough and I didn't drink enough water too. I drank like 7 to 8 cups a day which apparently wasn't enough. A pregnant woman must drink at least 2-3 liters of water a day. Or 2 cups each hour, one for mommy & one for her baby. So I hope that was the cause of my low amniotic fluid, not other worrying cause.
The other thing I regretted was I think I over-walked. I walked a lot in this pregnancy, I carried heavy groceries, carried my 13 kg son, sent my son to his baby class ~ walking far with heavy diaper bag back and forth. From now onwards, I will take care my body better & I won't take anything for granted
I have so far been drinking plenty of water, totally avoiding soda & soft drinks and focusing on healthier diet. I really hope baby Cal continues on staying strong & healthy just like baby EJ when he was in his mommy's belly
Maybe I'm over worrying but she's my baby, I love her as much as I love her older brother, so that's mother's love I guess ~ worrying every single thing since pregnancy.
As much as I wanted to do more baby shopping, for both babies ~ the 15 month old & the one in my belly but I put my desire to shop on hold first. I need to rest & when I'm better (my water is back to normal), I will continue my shopping.
Belly is noticeable already :)
And our daughter's name is
I decided to reveal her name early because I just felt ready... She has her own identity and that's not very cool to address her as 'peanut' all the time hehee...
Calysta means most beautiful & fairest and Avalyn means beautiful life, we hope she's not only beautiful from the outside but from the inside too & she will live a beautiful life just like her name :)
Till Next Time & Wish me a super super smooth pregnancy ^^
~Netty~
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